Broken Report

八月尾，看到一篇很離地的轉載文字，大意是講述九月初起會有巨型的能量衝擊地球，促使集體意識上的提升。在個人層面上，其中一件可能會發生的事就是計劃會有突變：

//.... it means that you may see plans suddenly changing. What you had previously perhaps planned to do next month may either happen much sooner, or will no longer be a viable option at all. You may find sudden shifts in relationships, living situations, jobs, geographical location, etc. that suddenly require your attention and awareness. Everything is always “planned” from your current energetic state at any given moment in time. When a big leap occurs in your current time/space position, subsequently everything that was to come shifts rapidly too. This often means that what was previously a high potentiality for manifestation as an experience becomes null and void. The best guidance we can give for the next few months is: Go with the flow!//

看完以上文字沒多久，事情就發生在我身上了。

我很想把這幾天發生的事情好好的安放在這裏。確實，一個個人小小的Project在此時此刻支離破碎，而整個人簡直是散了一樣 -- 無論是自己的創作意欲和目的、學藝的動機、甚至和提供指導和協助的老師關係近乎「破裂」-- 整個創作源起其實都充滿傷痕 -- 是因為滿身傷所以連下意識也不讓自己把故事做出來？想不到未開始正式做就已經要寫一份Broken Report，何其傷心！我倒想起每一次做所謂的創作都有這種撞牆經驗，總會陷入這種敗局、死胡同，近乎絕望的狀態，簡直是完全「被屈機」。被撞到口腫面腫的我，望著這種頹垣敗瓦，心如刀割......

究竟如何才可以從這堆瓦礫玻璃碎片中拾回重生的勇氣，把這些破碎重組？
究意整件事是否要注定放棄？天是否要我let go?
Why don't allow me to move on and proceed?
What are blocking me from creating what I want?

HS, I really look forward to your clear guidance.